“Do not avoid contact with suffering or close your eyes before suffering. Do not lose awareness of the existence of suffering in the life of the world. Find ways to be with those who are suffering by all means, including personal contact and visits, images, sounds. By such means…awaken yourself and others to the reality of suffering in the world. If we get in touch with the suffering of the world, and are moved by that suffering, we may come forward to help the people who are suffering.”

~ Thich Nhat Hanh

New Guy shall be known as the viking.

he is a scruffy blonde and he shall now be known as the viking. 

I asked the viking a very important question today.

Me: ‘do you know how to play ‘creep’ by radiohead on your guitar’

The Viking: ‘is this some kind of set up’?

By golly, I think he has a brain. 

What are you wearing?

I have been super depressed lately (blog post about that later) and wanted so badly to cancel on my date for last night but I am glad I didn’t. New guy is super awesome and he gets me and my hang ups. For now any ways.

I get a text this morning from new guy (who has no nick name yet) asking me what I am wearing. I though this might be an extension of kinky sex talk from last night (nope did not screw him). My reply was ‘yoga pants and a tshirt’- complete truth. His reply to me was that he would like me to dress in all white, wear no make up, have my hair down and don’t forget the panties.

Um…

He added that he wanted me to be safe for the rapture and that I should dress as virginal as possible. (reminded me of @KimmieTex when he said Virginal).

Necklace.

I have this antique looking black key I sometimes wear around my neck. It is simply a key on a black cord.

I was asked: ‘why do you wear that black key around your neck? Are you going to give it to someone who can unlock your heart’?

If I gave someone the key I wore around my neck would they be able to unlock my heart? Is my heart locked, is this the key that will magically open it? Hell no!

My relply: ‘matches my earings and my outfit’.

Sometimes, its just a freakin piece of jewelery. 

What is in a name?

So a few years ago, I knew a girl.

We used to call each other by our last names. 

Girl got married.

I went to wedding.

A year after wedding, I called her by her premarried name. My bad. I forgot. 

She seemed offended.

A few months after that, I called her by her premarried name again. She reminded me of her married name again. I got a follow up email. Just a snarky friendly reminder.

I had not seen her since that email. Talked on the phone a few times, few emails, few text but not in person.

I saw her this week.

I called her by her married name.

She is divorced. 

Kinky Quiz Results

I took a quiz and I scored switch- but very high on sadist and dominant- interesting. 

You Scored as Switch

Switch96%Experimental82%Sadist75%Dominant75%Exhibitionist / Voyeur64%Submissive50%Bondage36%Degradation Lover36%Masochist29%Vanilla14%